I"m happy

Finally got my charger so I can update more often. Had a pretty relxing week, lunches here, dinners there. I want to get my thoughts in order. I"ve been to yoga classes which isn"t bad considering I've been here a week and a lot of that was consumed by jet lag.

I can tell I"ve grown up in many ways although I still have more to go. I don"t need to drink so much, I do attribute this to the many years of yoga practice and the confidence it has given me.

Writing your thoughts is SO therapeutic.

So what"s on lucky ladies mind tonight?
Hmmm....
----I got a call from bad boy, seems he truely is missing me and is eager to come stay with me here in Japan. This did get me excited as if I"m being honest, he has played much on my mind...could it be love?

----Concerned a bit with the language learning and keeping sane with it. Must try not to put too much pressure on myself as I feel miles better than last time I was living here.

----Plans for next week. I"ve been trying to fill up my diary. Gonna meet lots of blasts from the past.

At the moment I am reading several books: -

• Three Black Skirts by Anna Johnson

A beauty/style kind which is fantastically written

• Lightning on the Sun by Robert Bingham

An amazing novel set in Cambodia...very inspiring

• Journey into power by Baron Baptiste

I have ead this once more and is probably one of the most inspiring books I"ve read. I love the way he describes the yoga poses along with the philosophy. This book helped me greatly last time I was living here.
Ciao for now!

I am here!

It's good to be back in my favourite continent. I do have strong jet lag and have only slept a couple of hours in the last few days. If I go to bed soon though i should be alright. It:s amazing how much better the body feels after yoga, My legs felt as thought they had blown up to extreme proportions after the long flight but 30 mins of intense stretching soon sorted that.
Went for yakitori with some old friends and is so good to see anyone.
Anyway have to wait till I can get on my computer to write properly because don:t feel I can write privately now.

A new life...

will be starting for me in less than 24 hours. I feel excited about it. I wanna make some serious changes this year. Can't write for long because not my computer but I have 4 hours in the airport to write some goals for the next year and some reflections from the past.

Time is closing in!

Am sitting in a local pub to where I am living to update on the last few days.
Friday...road trip to midlands for a very good friends wedding. Stayed in a beautiful cottage with some her other close friends. Early night to be fresh for the big day.
Saturday was AMAZING. Have to admit much merriment was had. A wonderful tea party, then a delicious meal in the evening. Funny how time passes so quickly on days like this. A whole day with strange but interesting people. Time fly's or flew. I was naughty again but I am just enjoying life so not gonna beat myself up over it.
Felt dreadful yesterday, sheer exhaustion. I was also very emotional which I am feeling now too.
I did a time line of my life from 2000 and realised how much I have actually done with my life. There was also some emotional events that came up that made me feel shameful and sad. Think I still need to see a shrink. Actually I really do.

Feeling good

Had a good sleep and am really in moving away mode now. Spent an hour sifting through mails and feel refreshed from dealing with some thiings I've been putting off. Had my hair cut yesterday, probably the shortest I've ever gone but I like it nonetheless. I'm gonna tidy my room and pack for wedding and going abroad. Then try and squeeze some yoga in.
Bad boy is playing on my mind less and less...good sign...

Don't bother!

Well...my last shift at work has come and gone. I feel a bit sad and strange to think I won't be visiting this city that has been such a big piece of my life for the last 2 years. The stories I could tell. Bad boy was supposed to meet me but i got a text that was as simple as
'cant do tonight.'
No emotion, no nothing. I know I said I was gonna close that chapter a few days ago but deep down I think I wanted to see him but then its postponing the finality of it all. So he called me when I didn't respond. He said he would call me tomorrow to which I replied
'DON"T BOTHER'
Childish, I'm sure but sums up how much he's let me down over the year, although I can't deny the exciting times we've had together.
It was a full moon tonight...I love it, magical feeling in the air.
No more work, no more running for the train. My life is ready for great change, I will grow stronger as my year progresses in this familiar let incredibly strange country.
Just one week left now....

Am I lonely?

Another shift at work. Just 2 more left then it's wedding then the big move to Asia.
I had a private yoga class yesterday, hamstrings hurting and feeling utter exhaustion all day. I even slept on train on way home but made myself do some yoga when I got in. What a lease of life this gave me. Just been sorting out some bits and bobs. Got an urge to go out and eat. Eat eat eat...is it becuase I'm lonely? Emotional eating, not fitting in with the yogic way.
On a final note, bad boy didn't get in touch..yet, but I not holdong breath while I wait.