Snow!

Of course I've been in snow before but this is my first year to have constant snow during my everyday life, if that makes sense?
Recently, I have been very busy studying, find the language really difficult but enjoy many aspects of it. I got into a great yoga routine but last week I was sick so fell out of the routine. I am going to have a nap now then wake up and work my way throught the first series. Tonight I am going to some bars with a friend. A great opportunity to practice the language and get merry...
Next week is Tokyo, am very excited to return there!!
Ciao for now.

Taking a breath...

before we do things is important.
For me, I have a high tendancy to rush everything in all parts of my life. The yoga really helps me to control this although as in everything there is still much room for improvement.
So this weekend, i want/need to study hard for 3 tests I have next week.
I will organise my time betweent the three. I will do well. When i go out, soft drinks will be drank. Deep breaths will be taken before comments are made.
It's gorgeous, there are many gorgeous people around me. I love filling my life with positive people!

You should try and relax a little bit more...

were the words from one of my teachers. That was over a week ago but it still plays on my mind.

I have been doing a lot of the Baron Baptiste style power yoga. Although the last few days have been busy with guests and so on.

Today I have been in my room studying, cleaning, e-mailing. We had SUCH a great time at the beach this weekend. A few posts ago, I talked about what my goals are (or more that I didn;t know what they are). Well I realised thta one of them definitely involves living very very close to a beach. I felt so happy on Saturday. THis is what the point in life is...surely. Well...on of them at least.

As for the relaxation. Hmmm, I fell out of the meditaiton quite a lot since I moved here. But mediation is very imoportant and should not be neglected. I've been using podcasts a lot recently, and maybe I will try and subscube to spome mediation ones. Yes, that is what I shall do. Right now. Then more study.

Revelation

Yesterday I had a wonderful day. I was so happy all day, life just felt good. I also had first contact with bad boy. I could see his face fo the first time in 2 months. So strange how 2 such very different people can be so drawn to one another. But paranoia is a big factor in my life. Sometimes it takes over me like posion and I can feel it destroying relationships slowly. I will not let it anymore. But bad boy, what am I doing (same old story), nothing can happen...we are just too different and have totally different dreams in life....ahhhhh

I have also realised that the 'eye lash buiding liquid' is a stong contender for the cause of the intense dizziness I was going through. I am trying to investigate. Still feeling tired but dizziness has pretty much ceased.

Have been practising yoga each day this week and this has helped with my happiness...it is making me so much stonger!

I have 2 tests tomorrow, so trying to get down to some hard core studying. Feeling more confident about my language learning at the moment....life is great!

Having complete control over my thoughts

Is this possible?
I am a very reactive person. People, I always say, are like chemicals. To clarify, people react differently with one another to make certain, in our human's case, relationships.

For me personally, it really bother me when I don't get on with people. Not that I need to be loved by everyone (maybe I do) but bad reactions always leave a really bitter taste in my mouth. And I dwell...why how I dwell, a lot.

So my life is starting to take structure to these new surroundings. The weekend involveda beautiful trip to the mountains. My disgraceful energy levels stopped me form going on the hike with my friends. I waited in the car. I did not wish to ruin it for them. I made a decision to try and cut dairy out of my diet, again. I really want to get to the bottom of this bane in my life.

I am very happy, apart from this problem though. I have made several really great friends. the workload is quite a lot but I enjoy it. Learning is a huge part of the point of life. To grow and make oneself stronger...mentally and physically. Talking of which, I did a good yoga practice this morning.

Must sleep now ready for a new day tomorrow!

Goals

This is something I've been thinking of on and off for a while now. I don't really know what they are. I think they involve yoga. i want them to invole yoga at any rate. I want to set some goals but I don't know how.
Ahhh, it's a viscious circle. Or is it? No it's not really. What's going on in this crazy head of mine?
I love my family. But I sometimes feel sad because I don't/can't see them enough.
Home is where the hurt is!!
I've will follow my heart but where does my heart want to go.

More mediation is needed. I just saw a video on medidation that said not to meditate before bed as it gives u too much energy. This would figure with previous nights of insomnia following previous meditation! I will meditate tomorrow following the yoga, which i have done 4 times in the lst week. I feel pleased with this progress. I also feel so much better in myself from doing it.

I am sooooo sensitive to noise. Maybe this can be a goal, to not let noise bother me so much.
And following from last blog to not get so upset by stupid meaningless comments. Ok two goals to work on in the next week. Lets see how I get on.

I'm angry

Ok, dizziness has stopped. Tiredness still here.

I did yoga in Tuesday and Weds, the full primary series both times. Today though, my hamstrings are very very tender. So, I couldn't practice today.

I feel upset and hurt by a comment that was made tonight. It made me feel really ugly. I think this is one of my sensitive issues. I really don't wanna be ugly...maybe I should face it.

No no, I wanted this to be a positive blog. I just feel sad and a bit down. Tomorrow...a positive day!!